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2007-11-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

It's another birthday celebration on Sun. Had the birthday celebration at some restaurant at Lavendar, Ding Tai Lou. It's said to be famous I think, but to me, the food there doesn't give us the "wow" effect.

haha... we planned to do things that we have not done before together. Like going to eat in a restaurant, something which we have not done before, going on a holiday together, bbq-ing on squatting down.... .... haha... there's more to come..

And this is the first time I tried the Belgian Chocolate's waffle, which was shown on one of the variety show. It's good! ya.. can try... And the stall is so technologically advanced! Look at the receipt... so nice... and there is a card with some bar code on it to accumulate points... so that the more points you get, you can get a free waffle or sth.

And we chanced upon this building while looking for toilets.. haha... We didn't know Singapore has such a place! This place is so... gothic... i don't know how to describe. I think it looks like the Batman building in the Batman show.

And the toilet.

And there is Churchill, Lincoln, Plato... haha... Din know such place exist...

and I like this painting alot! Very style.... and colourful...

Hope I have the chance to go back there again, if I remember how... haha... The sunshines have fun.

I think Singapore is a rather beautiful place if we know how to explore and appreciate.

2007-10-29T21:20:00.000+08:00

thoughts.thoughts.thoughts.thoughts.thoughts.
problems.problems.problems.freedom.freedom...

2007-10-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

And visitation to my brother's camp!

Wow.... it's so big inside and his wing is called 'hotel'. wa... what a name. haha....

haha.. He's the Drying Yard I/C and he's proud of it. haha... so funny when he show us around the laundry site.

The campsite is too big. We got drained out after walking. haha.. my bro and his "medal".

2007-10-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

Busy weekend.

juan's 21st bday and it's really a successful sunshine celebration though it's kinda messed up in the beginning. Perhaps, we all need some warm-ups. haha...

The celebration was held at bedok (*wa..so far*) ya... and it's at her friend's hse. Actually, when we took taxi down to the stretch of road, we thought it would be a very big hse and quite grand, because on our ride down to his house, all of the houses we saw were very big, nice and grand.

Then, we stopped... it was quite a run-down place. And guess wad? We have to BBQ squatting on the floor! with just two bricks to support the wire gauge. I think we were all quite startled.

So, we just prepare the food and wait for the host to help us to start up the fire.

While waiting, we just self-entertained ourselves. hehe....

Liwen's SMU jump...

the back view.....

Though we have problems starting the fire and were all perspiring and hungry after 2 hours.... we worked hard tgt to start up the fire... haha..... and finally! Our hope! We have fun sitting and squatting on the floor to BBQ our food.

Quite a special celebration. I think not much ppl will BBQ sitting on the floor... haha.... and nobody does 21st birthday celebration like we do. Though the place is a bit run-down, most importantly is we have the heart to get tgt and have fun tgt. :) And it's somehow the happiest celebration cum outing that we had.

Cheers! :)

2007-09-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

it's been a long long time ever since I celebrate Mooncake Festival, ever since Pri 4 or 5 i guess. But it's great having to enjoy this Festival again! and with Rach and Maine...

Though no mooncakes.

Yeah!

playing with fire

Hm... went to near Chinese Garden to wait for the fireworks but the fireworks only displayed for a while. Luckily we did not went into place, else not worth... haha.....

Rachel's burnt lantern. Oops...

A glimpse of the fireworks

2007-09-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

At The Cross

Oh Lord You’ve searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There’s no greater love than this.Y
ou have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me.
And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes,
And You stand before me,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

You tore the veil,
You made a way
When You said that it is done.

Hillsong - Mighty To Save

2007-09-18T21:16:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Rachel! :)

happy birthday to u...
happy birthday to u...
Happy birth --- day to Yoo U...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

2007-09-08T09:45:00.001+08:00

First time went to a so high class place to have my dinner! Guess where is it?

Ritz Carlton.

Wow.. the food there is fantastic, I can say. Very fresh, very appetizing. It's just superb. Too bad I didn't bring along my camera and don't have a camera phone.

The lobster is just so juicy. Black pepper crab is tasty. and alot alot.... beyond description.. And their cakes are nice!!! Love them.

But too bad, all these can be eaten like once in a while. Too "high class" for a poor person like me. hahaha..... I'll go bankrupt soon if I spend my money like that. But a good experience of being a "one day" tai-tai... haha....

Work life is not that good too coz got bullied by alot of ppl. haiz. Sometimes can be very depressing and "wu nai". Don't know to cry or to get angry. Mistakes are being pushed around and round like doing "tai-ji" and those weaker ones and lowly positioned will be the ones who got all the scoldings and craps. That doesn't only happen to me.

But forget it, I'll forgive them. hahah.... that's not the real reason though, but i think that's how work life is. Maybe take this as a moulding process and to see the true colours of the people in the workplace. Moreover, I am going to leave the company by next year March or June by hook or by crook.

Was amazed by how I survived the 1 year. Really got to thank God for bringing me through.

*** A love that comes from the heart will be felt, though not spoken. ***

2007-08-26T20:12:00.000+08:00

Dreams, ambitions, interests.

I'm amazed by the interest some of my friends have. One of them is so into photography and he took great photos. It's really professional. Little did I know Singapore can be such a beautiful place. Some of his photos taken : http://www.flickr.com/photos/sprintist86/

And one of them loves baking. When i saw the photos of the cakes she baked, they make me drool.
Look at the cakes she baked! Isn't it yummy! And she's taking up baking courses soon.

Wondering where is my interest at? What do I like to do and the things I'm really good at it. Some can baked very well, some can take photos very well and they enjoyed doing it.

What do I enjoy doing? ? ?

What do you enjoy doing in your free time?

Both of them somehow inspire me to think deeper into life, on the things I can do. It need not be something great. Just things that you are happy doing, have passion in. But I longed to search for things I am passionate about.......

2007-08-19T21:34:00.001+08:00

It's a happy and tiring day!! happy birthday to anqi! Our birthday girl!

Hm, though some hiccups here and there. But we managed to get a chalet last min instead of sleeping in a tent. Really thank God for this. With the kind of weather nowadays, I'm not sure if we are able to tent.

BBQ was good. The fire was just nice. This is the first time I see BBQ so successful and the food are not so 'chao ta'.

We have fun BBQ-ing tgt.. First time we BBQ tgt and stay in chalet too!

haha... mq is trying to imitate those koreans wrapping up their heads when they go for spa... haha... lw looks so funny.

We had fun. But everyone was tired. Stayed up almost the whole night playing cards. And we were awaken by the crying sound of our neighbour. She cried or you can say wailing.. That someone went to knock on their doors to ask them to keep quiet coz she wailed for a very very long time, like 20 min? I think her vocal cords going to burst. coz the way she screamed is so deafening.

haha... Our chalet happy ending....

Everyone was tired. and our reward for the chalet!

2007-08-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

Had a tiring day out the whole day yesterday.

Went to chinatown to buy birthday gift for a friend. We wanted to look for atm machine so we could buy our lunch as we spent all our money on the gift. Then we came to this shop which was featured on tv before, so we went to try their hotdogs.. from Germany. Poor us... forked out all the money we have, which is like S$1.50...!!

This is the mini hotdog bread we have. and we halved it coz we are left with $1.50. haha.... not bad.. :)

After which, we went to our friends' party. It was sort of a secondary skl class gathering.. Everyone still looks the same. Not much changes.

The birthday boy and girl.

The party was ok. it's just like a group gathering for us coz all of us were split into 3 groups and were talking among our gang. haha.... we went to play pool after tat... which was so late at night.... ah... tiring... but the pool was quite fun. haha.. coz i won the game.

But we were all drained out. tired. tired.. But overall, it's a good gathering as we seldom meet up together also.

2007-07-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

hahaha... finally got my blogger back!! wow! so happy. haha..... i remembered my password.. like all of a sudden. haha...

yea... :)

suddenly miss band songs so much.. so decided to put up band songs. Still remembered the times we played band songs and how much i don't like to play it coz so tiring especially when playing the songs we all don't like.

Then, we will take out the piece that we love to play and play it when our conductor went home. haha..

2007-07-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

Well, today is a super tiring day for me. When to volunteer to help out in collecting newspaper for my ex-poly (Ngee Ann!) yay... they called the event 'TenTons' coz they wana collect newspaper to meet that target.. it's suppose to collect the papers and old clothings from the neighbourhood and get money to help the charitable organisation.

wa... haf to meet at 830am at JP. so many unfamiliar faces, but my fren was with me. the most tiring part is collecting the newspapers coz haf to carry all the newspaper we collected to a collection point which is like quite far from our blocks and no trolley or rafia strings... juz use plain hands to carry.. so sweaty and dirty after carrying those. and guess who i saw? saw joel ee while collecting.. coz my frens went to knock at his hse. din see him until I was about to went down to the next floor den.. eh.... joel ee!

And on my way home.. guess who i saw again? saw xiumei.. the 4D1 de... from band one... so long no see her already.. and she's so busy with life. wa.. she joined 3 bands... den somemore study politics... i was like... wow..... isn't it stress? i mean so busy... den she say busy den good. i was thinking she must be crazy already... if i am her, i will cry like siao everyday.

then, we dropped off near my hse bus stop coz she's going to shao yan's hse for some gathering.. den at my bus stop, saw yi long... haha... so they went to shao yan's hse tgt.. den i go home....

2007-04-06T20:22:00.000+08:00

work was as per normal yesterday. As it's Good Friday the next day, most of my colleagues took leave so that they can have a long weekend.

well, the most important or highlight of yesterday, 5 Apr, is that my ex-colleagues ordered something for mi and deliver the gift to my current workplace!!! i got a shock of my life when i receive a call from the delivery man.

he called ard 445pm and asking mi wad time the office close as he is making delivery to me.

I was like, 'huh? i think u shld call the warehouse ppl coz i am not suppose to be the one receiving the goods, moreover, i din place order.'

den he say he's making delivery from my colleague, Jeffany.... my mind was somehow blank at that instant.. like huh?

shocked....

but was really paiseh when the delivery man came to deliver the gifts to me.. i tot it was juz some small small present that i can hide in my bag or something... wa.... in the end... turn out to be so big..... no place to hide... but i love it alot.. very sweet and thoughtful of them. they still rmb my bday. feel so fortunate.... xin fu, xin fu.... :)

2007-03-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

was out to science centre on sat! haha.. it was a fun day out wif rachel.. with all the discovering of things that are sold at the duno wad shop in science centre...

Heroine to the rescue! Ooo eee OooOO.....

rachel conquer the BIG FISH! Applause!!!

There're many interesting there... like the ready to eat ice-cream... and magnifying sheet... ahaha....

It really magnifies your face.. wa....haha...

Then took pic with Mr Bean. (Hmm... i can do that better than Mr Bean.)

Then we went to JEC to play arcade... but both of us like so "old-fashioned". The arcade is so modern now la... they use card to tap on the machine... den $$ will be deducted from ur card and u can play the game. but both of us so "shua-ku"... tap on the machine 2 times... but the machine doesn't start.

Know why? coz we din press the start button. So, not knowingly the game has already started, we went to the cashier to ask the person how the card is to be used. And some kids were playing at our game!!!!

but nvm la.. hah.... the cashier give us back the game. hehe.... but dunking the basketball was great! throw all my stress away into the hoop... somehow, all my tiredness, anger, worries are being vent out in this way. Felt much more relieved and happier. :)

at least i dun feel so burdened and heavy inside.

This song was ringing inside me as I went home today from cell grp.

Be it in a quiet pasture, or by a gentle stream
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side
Should I face a mighty mountain, or a valley dark and deep
The Shepherd of my soul will be my guide

Ya... though I might be facing mountains, You will guide me and lead me out. Give me the strength to move on..... ....... i am just tired of all these.....

2007-03-15T21:30:00.000+08:00

I am not anyone to judge all these things but somehow I just feel disgusted by the reality of the world.

all the evil plots, self-centredness of man.....
how far can it go? how far can the evil heart, the complexity of man's mind go...?
Nothing is more horrible than man himself. nothing.....

2007-03-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

work has been getting tensed up this week. I know wad work politics is like, but those were the minor ones and i choose to ignore as it doesn't really bothers me. As long as it doesn't affect me, it's fine.

But.. i feel very stressed up working under 2 person.
My boss isn't "fighting" for the sales coz that sales was hers instead of the other guy's. That guy is so mean. He's working under my boss and he somehow step on top of her, showing no respect at all. My boss is so kind towards him and giving him the sales continually as his sales was so bad. Now, he turn to backstab my boss and claim all the credits.
There was this "conflict" on a particular order, and I'm in the middle. It's so hard to be the middle person. It's not about pleasing both parties.. it's more on who should I listen to. This person ask mi to issue order, but he's not my boss, he's juz a colleague.. but he's above mi in rank.. shld i follow? If i tell my boss about it, it makes mi act like a "apple-polisher" who will 'da xiao bao gao'.... I also don't want to make the relationship between them so tensed up coz i can feel the tension.... it's making me so stress.........!!!!!

God... please help me....

On mon, I feel so stress until a point where I want to break down. so tired of this type of work.

2007-03-03T12:14:00.000+08:00

updates...

Friday..21 Feb
went to meet my sec skl frenz at jp as one of them is leaving for Korea for some exchange programme. Actually before that, we had some quarrels or misunderstanding. But in the end, it was a happy ending. Though there may be some quarrels and unhappiness with some people in the group, the meeting just bonded us tgt and made our friendship stronger.

Saturday.. 22 Feb

it's great meeting up with poly frenz and getting updates from them. jm updated us on her life at uni... tried to help her, but the ultimate decision lies on her. Rested at Essential Brews Cafe. But too bad, the second floor was not opened.. after tat rl receive a call/ sms saying she could use the car!! yay!! we were all waiting for this. haha... it's so exciting! nv been drove by my fren b4, so it's pretty cool.

went to changi to eat BK.. haha.. a bit wasted.. drive so far juz to eat BK.. hm... but it was sure fun and i took lots of photos with rl's hp. hehe.... feel so proud of my production. wahahaha.... den rl drove us all the way home.. feel so bad.. like wad she said, she felt like being 'li yong'. hm.. ya.. quite true.. coz i feel we are really too much asking her to drive us all the way back home to Jurong. hm.... if i got a car.. and if ppl ask mi to drive them here and there.. i will oso feel this way too... but thank you, ling!!! really really appreciate that...

Mon, 26 Feb

Cell group had some mini celebration for the new year. maine's mum cooked some food for us. Then got prayer and all.

hm.. from what i hear and see... the cell is hm.. not really in good shape. everyone or most of us seems to be "down".

But the prayer session was good coz everytime, it seems like our prayers got answered.

So... :)

On tues, 27 Feb

Eat at PARISS international buffet with my colleagues. hm... didn't eat much though coz the food there are all seafood... din like seafood, and those raw food.

But the place is very grand. Really not the kind of place I would usually go to.. coz it's super ex... one meal cost more than $50++ per person.

Wana faint. but the bosses there subsidies a little.. so we all din pay much.

I only ate french fries, some soup, drink some tea, ice-cream, some pineapple rice.. ya.. tat's all..

Then all my colleagues were asking mi to try the oyster. but.. eee.. dun like..

I can say that their food are of high quality, their oyster are so big and fresh.. really very big... and my colleagues juz ate that.. but i was like.. oh yucks... of coz i din say out la...

Feel quite bad when they say I am eating MacDonald's meal when the person came for the bill. Coz my colleagues were asking for discount and they say I juz ate fries.. eating MacDonald's meal.. so count mi as child... know they were joking la.. but.. hm.. juz feel.... ya... a bit upset ba...

we were all full to the brim after the buffet. wa... so full...

2007-02-16T16:43:00.000+08:00

blogging now at my workplace. so bored... nothing to do....

seems like everyone on leave. haiz.. so quiet here.... everyone on leave den no orders, no enquiries.... sian ar..........
But I'm glad i din take off. Don't know what to do at home too. Guess I'll just slp my way through.

Oh.. New Year is coming... I'm so scared.. scared of wad?

Scared of turning fat. It's the most vulnerable time when all the "nian gao" like pineapple tarts, cornflake cookies, sweets, bak kua are all looking at you and asking you to try them.
Especially the pineapple tarts and cornflake cookies which my mother and I baked.

No...!! I must stay away from them and try to eat lesser of them? Heheee......

How will my Chinese New Year be like this year? hmm....

2007-02-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to ALL!

Well, me and my fren, ling... did an exciting thing! wahaha.. and she suggested it. But i think it rather cool!
It's giving of valentine's day gift to each other. And... nope.. not the usual style where u gif the present to her face to face. We have to MAIL out our V'day present! haha.... so exciting... it's so full of surprises.

Hmm.. wonder what the gift will be. hmm......
Well, we thought the gift will reach on the 14 feb if we sent out on the 12th.. but.. both of us receive it on the 13.. TODAY! so tempted to open it.. and it's the first time i receive a present through mail. so happy...... ........

2007-02-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

Recently, read an article which caught me thinking.

The article talks about graduates finding jobs even before they graduate/ finish school. It seems like everyone in the uni is so eager to find a job and getting themselves ready for interviews.

She mentioned that in the Western countries, like in the States, the graduates are unlike those graduates from Singapore. They will become backpackers and go around exploring the world. Somehow, they will enjoy their life at a certain point in time before entering into the workplace.

Is this wad we should be doing too? Why are we so anxious in getting a job for ourselves?

Afraid we can't get a job in future?

Or with work, it makes us seem more "useful" and have a bright future ahead?

Perhaps we are so conformed to the pattern of this world. Careers.. cash... the 5Cs are more impt than our lives.

People in Singapore live to work instead of work to live.
It really 'ke bei' to see this happening somehow. But it seems to be the norm.

2007-02-01T07:28:00.000+08:00

DO we change a person? Or do we just change our attitude towards the person and accept him/ her?

For example.. "A" is a very stubborn person. Do we change him? Or do we change our attitude and accept his stubborness coz he's being brought up this way?

hm....

2007-01-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

An email message from a friend:

Hope it speaks to you just like it spoke to me too. Just felt I have to send it out, so got it translated. Of course, there's something I wish to point out, that serving does not mean it becomes work (ie. stressful, just getting things done, no different form a working day), or we really miss the whole point of what it was initially intended to be.
God bless,
Yinglin

Do you love Me?

One morning, I woke up early to catch the sunrise. Wow! The beauty of God's creation is indeed indescribable. As I sat there watching, I felt God's presence with me.
He asked me, "Do you love Me?"

I answered, "Of course, You're my Lord and Saviour."
And He asked, "If your body is handicapped, would you still love Me?"I looked down at my arms, legs and the rest of my body and wondered how many things which I now take for granted would have become impossible for me to do if I'm handicapped. But I still answered, "Lord, it would be difficult, but I will still love you."

The Lord asked me directly, "If you are blind, would you still love what I've created?"

How am I going to love what I cannot see? But when I think of how some among the blind are still able to love God and His creation, I simply said, "When I think of it, it seems difficult. But God, I'm still willing to love You."
The Lord asked again, "If you are deaf, are you still willing to hear my words?"

How are people who are deaf going to hear? Then I understood, that we do not use only our ears, but our hearts to listen to the word of God. And so I replied, "Lord, it's hard, but I'm willing to listen to Your word."

Then God asked me, "If you're a mute, will you still be willing to praise My Name?"

Without a voice, how do I praise? But a word enlightened me: God wants our praise to rise up from our heart and spirit, more than from our voice. So I said, "Even if I cannot make a sound, I'll still praise Your Name."
He asked me again, "Do you really love Me?"

With faith I boldly replied, "Yes Lord! I love You because You are the only true God." I thought my answers were good. But…
God asked me, "Then why do you still sin?"

I said, "Because I'm human. I'm not complete."

"Why is it that when all's well and peaceful, you're lost and so far away? Yet when you face difficulties, you pray so earnestly?"

I couldn't answer. Only tears were flowing down…

He continued, "Why do you only sing when you're at home cell and Sunday service? Why do you only seek Me during worship? Why do you always ask selfishly? Why are you faithless when you pray?"

Tears continued to flow down my throat.
"Why are you ashamed of Me? Why do you not spread the gospel? Why is it that when you encounter persecution and misunderstandings, you did not come and cry to me, but rely on others? Why do you find excuses when I gave you chances to serve Me?"

I tried to answer, but no words came.

"Your life is so blessed. I did not let you throw such a good gift away. I gave you intelligence and abilities to serve Me, but you kept running away from Me. I gave you the revelation of My word, but you did not grow in knowledge. I spoke to you, but you closed your ears. I poured out my blessings upon you, but you did not keep your sight on My blessings. I sent messengers to help you, but you refused to budge, and even chased them away. I heard and answered your prayers, but you were never thankful…"
The Lord asked one more time, "Do you really love Me?"

I couldn't answer. How do I answer? I am so ashamed in my belief. I have no excuse. What can I say? My heart start to cry and tears burst forth. I cried out, "Lord, please forgive me! I am not worthy to be Your child."

The Lord answered, "That is My grace, child."
I asked Him, "Then why do you forgive me time and time again? Why do you love me so much?"

He said, "Because you are created by Me. You are My child. I will never abandon you. When you cry, I cry with you because of My mercy. When you're happy, I rejoice with you. I am always with you no matter what happens, only you did not notice."
I want to say something, but tears have blurred my eyes. Before my Lord, I do not have the words to say…

2007-01-07T09:34:00.000+08:00

Swim with wei ytd morning. Felt more refresh after that but the water is so cold. Shall swim next time again... ahaha.....

Go shopping with the shopping queen. sj... and aq.. walk until my legs going to break. But I'm so happy!! Bought 2 clothes. One is $39 and one is $13.

The $39 is not bad.. sj got good taste. But my heart pain... coz first time spend so much on one clothing. Hmm.. once in a while spend on clothing is ok.. luckily I'm not someone who spends often or I'll be so 'xin tong'.

Might be putting on braces soon due to overcrowding of teeth and 2 more are still growing. Haiz.. not enough space liao la... please don't grow any more teeth...
Thinking of putting braces makes me have goosebumps. I can't slp well for 2 days as I keep thinking about the process.. on how the dentist will inject my gums and how he pull out my teeth. Wa.. so pain so pain... pain until i cannot slp.

how? how? shld i do it? or not?

hm..

2007-01-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

iIt an unforgettable 2006 and the beginning of 2007.

Met up with my dear sunshines for dinner at the Vivocity. The place is not as crowded as I expected, partly coz many of them have already flocked down to Esplanade, Boon Lay and some other places to see fireworks.

It's supposed to be the 'Jie-Mei' gathering.. an unexpected guest came.. Sj brought Dennis along... the rest of us were a bit stunned.. haha....
Well, he has not change much even after going into the army. Still look the same as before.

Around 830pm, the rest of us headed down towards Esplanade for the fireworks.
Wow.. you should take a walk down then... so many people. It's like so many ants coming from all over.

It's been a long hour waiting for the fireworks, so we decided to play some games there.. ahhaa... play 'zong ji mi ma' and the 'Multiples of 7' game. Poor mq got the forfeit.... haha... she had to wish someone happy new year.. someone she don't know. It's really cool and crazy.... never thought my friends will dare to do this. This is our 第一次.

The fireworks is so nice, so beautiful but lasted for a short while.

That morning, we behaved like kids. We even played with sparkles that mq brought.. oh... it's so funny when the tourist came and took pictures with us. haha.....

The way home is super duper jammed. Can hardly move!!! It's my first experience with such a crowd. It's really a crowd. People are pushing each other and even with the pushing, we can't even move.. can u believe it?

Sj led us through the crowd.. she's really our heroine.. haha... while other peoples' line are still not moving, our line just moved and sj just squeezed her way through to bring us to the front. hahaha.. after all the chaos, she was perspiring like mad... can see her tiredness after leading us into the city hall mrt station.

The sunshines did alot of 'di yi ci' together this day.

1. Though it's not the first time we got full strength but it's very 'nan de' to get everyone together.

2. We 'di yi ci' count down and see the fireworks.

3. We 'di yi ci' play such daring games.

4. We 'di yi ci' experience such a big crowd and make our way through the mrt station tgt.

5. We 'di yi ci' go home so late.. haha....

Just hope we have many more 'di yi ci'. And hope we can spend time more meaningfully together.

Love my sunshines....

2006-12-25T10:24:00.000+08:00

Had a Thanksgiving cum TNT gathering on Sunday.

Was super super lost when I reached there, did not know what exactly are the things that need to be done. But guess, haha... i'm not the only one.

Was supposed to meet at 5pm to rehearse out skit but in the end, we rehearsed for a short while at around 6 plus.. I was so afraid that our skit will be "cold" coz not very prepared. But in the end, it turned out to be very funny... haiz... i worried too much...

There has been many instances that God tells me not to worry so much and that He is in control, but my heart just can't stop worrying..
Sometimes, i feel so insecure and think that things will not turned out right... but it's always not the case. Hope I can stop worry so much.

Rachel, you have alot of encouragment cards at my house!! :)

Merry Christmas!! (",)

2006-12-25T10:07:00.000+08:00

Met up with my poly frenz on thurs. It's great going out with them. Finally got to see Jyemin after so long. Really missed them alot but duno what to say to them when I see them.. haha.... Think they should know la.. hehee....

After which we went to esplanade, we got to write our wishes on the balloon.

And those wishing balls will be put into the sea. it's really cool. ahaha.....

The next day, went out with my sunshines to buy their long long belated birthday presents coz we couldn't find a time to meet up during october to buy their presents. It's been a few month since we met. We have fun shopping ard and "quarrelling". Met maine and rach at different time during the shopping. what a coincidence!

Rushed to a wedding after all that. I was being invited by a friend whom I barely know for 1 month.
The atmosphere to me is weird coz I'm kinda lost there, duno wad to say or do.... no common topics to talk about with the rest of my ex-colleagues, since I only worked in NTU for like 1 month.. ya... so juz become a mute at that instant. Just smile, smile, eat and eat.

But on the way home, I met my parents!!! haha.. At least I'm not going home alone. hehe.. :)

2006-12-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

was browsing through the blogs.. it seems like most of them are writing down their Christmas wishlist.

Hm.. didn't really went into thinking about the wishlist. haha....

But if there was really one, I would like to wish for:

1. No more shipment to Doha in the near future
2. new pair of shoes
3. mp3 player
4. 2 pairs of two way ticket to TW/ HK/ BK

Haha.. tat's all? I think so... ehehehe

2006-11-19T17:09:00.000+08:00

All my worries are all unfounded. My dad went back to his old job to work again! Thank God that he's able to go back there, or else he will be like that day... sulking all night when he came home tat night.

:)

was thinking this while on the way back home from church. Looking at everyone in the streets, buses....
are they really happy? are you happy?

2006-11-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

One good news and one bad news.

The good news is that I will not be working this sat! Yay!!!
Why?
Coz most of the people in my company are going to Batam for company holiday.. so left a few of us to work on sat, therefore the management decides to give us a break this sat! But everyone will need to come to work next sat till 5 - 6pm plus due to stock taking.

The bad news is that something bad happened to my family. Hm... duno how to view it but to me, it's a bad news. Coz my dad is being retrenched, i think... juz not working anymore. Maybe it might be a good news as he is able to rest at home after so many years of work.

Somehow, I duno if this is going to be God's answer for me on furthering my studies. Now that my dad is jobless, can I still afford to study?

What lies in the future is really unpredictable. I thought I have planned nicely.. when to quit job, when to study and things.. and now, things might be different.

Tell me what to do.

2006-11-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

I'm on leave tomorrow. Yay!
Finally, I can take a break from my work. Hm.. though there might be work for me to do on Thurs.. but I'll juz put them aside right now. I've stressed myself enough. Time to take a breather. haha.. yay!! So happy for tomorrow is going to be a great day. * heeeee..

I've been looking through the uni websites to register for a course next year. But till now, I still don't know what I really want and which course I am interested in. Hmmm.... sometimes I think to myself, do I need a degree cert? Is poly cert enough for me?

I consulted my dad on whether I should further my studies. He simply said that it's going to be my choice, it's up to me. If he was to make a choice for me, he said I would bear grudges against him if anything goes wrong. haha.. well, maybe.

But should I study? I'm not sure if I can endure all those projects, tests and exams again. It's very hectic. But I'll get to see my friends, interact with people and hanging out with them, unlike work. Eeeww... OT and stuffing inside an air-con room in a confined space. Compared to work, study seemed to have more "live". more free time.. more carefree....

what should I do? to study or to work? study what course.. blah blah blah........

2006-11-05T10:38:00.000+08:00

Shacked.

Very tired of working, especially in this company. Initially, I thought it'll be fine and I'll be able to endure all those hardship. I thought it was juz a fact of worklife. But the more I stayed on, the more I work, I began to dread myself to work.

Really very tired, very very tired... almost break down a few times at work but I juz told myself, 'it's going to be fine, very soon you can go home, muz jia you!!'

This work is super stressful especially with all the last minute shipment to Doha and unfinished work done by another person who went on maternity leave. I have to follow up with all those things... prepare all the delivery orders, shipping invoices and packing list. It was supposed to be a half day on saturday for me, but due to all the last minute shipments, I stayed till 5pm to finish the work so that the container can be trucked out on Monday morning.

I HATE!!! late minute work. Don't ever give me last minute work. And my boss not coming to work on mon. I really duno!!!!!!! haiz... please don't let anything bad happen on monday. PLease...

sadden.

2006-10-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

My Dad's birthday! On 29 Oct.
Saw ling at the CC and she wished my dad a happy birthday. My dad was shocked at that instant, perhaps he was wondering how come ling knows about his birthday. haha.. but he was happy.

Although age is catching up, all of us still behaves like a child sometimes and wanting to be pampered and loved, wishing to be under some kind of protection.

2006-10-29T18:19:00.000+08:00

Standing At The Gates Of Heaven

Three men were standing in line to get into heaven one day. Apparently it had been a pretty busy day, though, so Peter had to tell the first one, "Heaven's getting pretty close to full today, and I've been asked to admit only people who have had particularly horrible deaths. So what's your story?"

So the first man replies: "Well, for a while I've suspected my wife has been cheating on me, so today I came home early to try to catch her red handed. As I came into my 25th floor apartment, I could tell something was wrong, but all my searching around didn't reveal where this other guy could have been hiding. Finally, I went out to the balcony, and sure enough, there was this man hanging off the railing, 25 floors above ground. By now I was really mad, so I started beating on him and kicking him, but wouldn't you know it, he wouldn't fall off.

So finally I went back into my apartment and got a hammer and starting hammering on his fingers. Of course, he couldn't stand that for long, so he let go and fell -- but even after 25 stories, he fell into the bushes, stunned but okay. I couldn't stand it anymore, so I ran into the kitchen, grabbed the fridge and threw it over the edge where it landed on him, killing him instantly. But all the stress and anger got to me, and I had a heart attack and died there on the balcony."

"That sounds like a pretty bad day to me," said Peter, and let the man in.

The second man comes up and Peter explains to him about heaven being full, and again asks for his story.
"It's been a very strange day. You see, I live on the 26th floor of my apartment building, and every morning I do my exercises out on my balcony. Well, this morning I must have slipped or something, because I fell over the edge. But I got lucky, and caught the railing of the balcony on the floor below me. I knew I couldn't hang on for very long, when suddenly this man burst out onto the balcony.

I thought for sure I was saved, when he started beating on me and kicking me. I held on the best I could until he ran into the apartment and grabbed a hammer and started pounding on my hands. Finally I just let go, but again I got lucky and fell into the bushes below, stunned but all right.
Just when I was thinking I was going to be okay, this refrigerator comes falling out of the sky and crushes me instantly, and now I'm here."

Once again, Peter had to concede that that sounded like a pretty horrible death.The third man came to the front of the line, and again the whole process was repeated.
Peter explained that heaven was full and asked for his story.

"Picture this," says the third man, "I'm hiding naked inside a refrigerator..."

2006-10-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

The bad news of my boss's father in law passed away broke out juz today at 9plus. She muz be terribly upset having to lost her loved ones.

I don't know how terrible and miserable it feels to lose a loved one, but I'm sure the feeling is indescribable. Like sword piercing through your heart. Actually, I'm very worried about Monday when I go to work. What am I going to expect? What is there awaiting me to handle?

I juz pray hard that God will send His angels to watch over me and help me pull through like what he did the last time when my boss when to the hospital for that 4 days.

Frankly speaking, that 4 days were hard to pass.
Perhaps I'm too dependent on my boss, perhaps I'm too inconfident that I can handle those work by myself.
Sometimes, I ever wonder when will my confidence build up and become more independent and not so insecure of the things that are awaiting ahead of me.

***********************

Today, there was also a meeting with some cell people to discuss on things on the cell group. I don't know what is God's plan for me, but somehow, I don't really like the idea. I'm scared and don't think I'm up to the job.

Maybe some will say, ' It's not whether you are up to the job, but it's whether you are willing to take up this job. Nothing is impossible or too hard.'

What is there ahead my path..................?

2006-10-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

Coffee Addiction

You know you are addicted to coffee if

-You grind your coffee beans in your mouth.
-You sleep with your eyes open.
-You have to watch videos in fast-forward.
-The only time you're standing still is during an earthquake.
-You can take a picture of yourself from ten feet away without using the timer.
-You've worn out your third pair of tennis shoes this week.
-Your eyes stay open when you sneeze.
-You chew on other people's fingernails.
-The nurse needs a scientific calculator to take your pulse.
-You're so jittery that people use your hands to blend their margaritas.
-You can type sixty words per minute with your feet.
-You can jump-start your car without cables.
-You don't sweat, you percolate.
-You walk twenty miles on your treadmill before you realize it's not plugged in.
-You forget to unwrap candy bars before eating them.
-You've built a miniature city out of little plastic stirrers.
-People get dizzy just watching you.
-Instant coffee takes too long.
-You channel surf faster without a remote.
-You have a picture of your coffee mug on your coffee mug.
-You can outlast the Energizer bunny.
-You short out motion detectors.
-You don't even wait for the water to boil anymore.
-Your nervous twitch registers on the Richter scale.
-You help your dog chase its tail.
-You soak your dentures in coffee overnight.
-Your first-aid kit contains two pints of coffee with an I.V. hookup.
-You ski uphill.
-You get a speeding ticket even when you're parked.
-You answer the door before people knock.
-You haven't blinked since the last lunar eclipse

2006-10-22T10:59:00.000+08:00

2006-10-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

Stress. Super Stressed up this week as my boss was hospitalized all of a sudden on Tuesday.

She called on Tuesday morning, telling me that she will be late for work as she's out to see doctor, but little did I expect her to end up in hospital. It's so sudden and the doctor said that she has a mild stroke.

When I heard she got stroke, I got a shocked. I juz went out for dinner with her to celebrate my colleague's birthday on Monday. And one moment, she's in hospital.

So I have to process and follow-up with all her work. I really got stressed during the first 2 days as there are alot and really ALOT of things to do. I was filled with uncertainty and confusion plus very inconfident. I've never done her work before, so where do I start? My colleague from Middle East called to comfort me saying they will be behind me and telling me not to be so stressed. I nearly burst into tears as I listened.

Now I know how stress my boss is and why she had to do OT everyday till 10, 11 plus at night. I guess to climb up to her position, it's really not that easy. Imagine the stress one has to take, everyday so many mails to look at, so many orders to process and so many calls to answer to... it's making me crazy.

But today was better as there are less calls, less mails to look at in my boss inbox. I guess most of them know she's in hospital so try not to call. Phew!

Hope tomorrow will be good and she will come back soon as I do not know how much longer I can sustain.. Hope she is fine with all the scanning..

2006-10-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

Peer pressure.

It's such a powerful thing that cause us to behave like the rest of the people and in a way we want to feel accommodated by other and be part of the "BIG" crowds.

Someone who never smoke in her first 2-3 months probation period began to bring cigarettes to work out of the blue. And this shocked the other smokers at my workplace. I juz felt that she juz wana feel part of the rest of the people, thus showing others she actually knows how to smoke as well. Well, she does know how to smoke but do we need to really do such a thing to be accepted by others?? How come suddenly bring cigarettes to work out of the blue?

My mind is filled with many thoughts upon seeing this. I duno wad else to say.

Really have to ask God to guide each and every step of ours that we will not fall into the victim of this peer pressure which most of us do.

2006-10-07T07:26:00.000+08:00

WHO AM I?

I am the salt of the earth (matt 5: 13)

I am the light of the world (matt 5: 14)

I am a child of God (John 1: 12)

I am part of the true vine, a channel
of Christ's life (John 15: 1, 5)

I am Christ's friend (John 15: 5)

I am chosen and appointed by Christ to
bear His fruit (John 15: 16)

I am a citizen of heaven, seated in heaven
right now (Phil 3: 20; Eph 2: 6)

I am an alien and stranger to this world in
which I temporary live (1 Pet 2:11)

I am not the great I am (Exod 3:14; John 8:24, 28, 58),
but by the grace of God, I am what I am (1 Cor 5: 10)

This is extracted from "Victory Over the Darkness' by Neil T. Anderson

There is a long list by I only write some and liked the ones in bold. I think this is a good reading because in the book, it told us or at least me, to read them when we think Satan is trying to deceive us into believing we are a worthless failure. The more we reaffirm who we are in Christ, the more our behaviour will begin to reflect our true identity.

2006-09-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

One of my friend commented, ' How come you don't want to work OT? It's good!' Hmm, forgotten who said this but no matter wad, I don't like to work OT even though there might be OT pay.

Work OT = more money (double the money you work during normal hours)

But I personally feel that monetary values are not so important to me, I rather knock off on time to go home to rest and enjoy myself at home, spending my time with my family and friends who are online. Maybe some may think I'm stupid for not working OT and earn more money.

What's more important to me is my freedom rather than tying myself down with workloads and earning more. It's very stressed coz you'll have to work after office hours, and it's depressing... especially for me. I will pity myself, like very ke lian... and get so tired the next day. Well, no offence in pin-pointing anyone.. dun be mistaken yea? (",)

Perhaps it's what people desire. I agreed with what this email sent by a friend. It's speaking how people like us are behaving in this reality.

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university lecturer. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.

Offering his guests coffee, the lecturer went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups: porcelain, plastic, glass, some plain looking and some expensive and exquisite, telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the lecturer said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other's cups."

"Now, if Life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change."

"Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it." So folks, don't let the cups drive you...enjoy the coffee instead.

2006-09-20T22:21:00.000+08:00

Had a cell outing to sentosa last sat. It was fun!!! Hmm.... so weird that I'm the onli girl down there. Thought will have other girls to accompany mi.. but it's ok.. haha... coz the luge and skyrides were so cool!!! Especially the luge. I like that the best. The skyrides were scary k..!!! too high for mi, and too insecure although the scenery is beautiful when seen from above. Wa... I cried when sitting on the skyrides, cannot make it.. too exciting for mi already... haha....

Then rush to Karen's 21st bday at Pasir Ris. OOooOoOoo.. the best part is the cake.. haha.. Pine's cake... super yummy!!! Can buy for ling!! haha.. ling.. read yr blog and u said u wan many many cakes rite? the cakes there are good good!! haha.. next time ur 21 bday we buy for u.. hahahah......

2006-09-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		8
Acts of Service:		6
Physical Touch:		6
Receiving Gifts:		5
Words of Affirmation:		5

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

I found this link from ling's site, find it very interesting.. heard my pastor talked about the 5 love languages but nv know what is my primary love languages. haha.. it's interesting... do it..

2006-09-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

It's the first time I went for training lesson that the company organises. It was an eye-opening experience for me. Never had I know so much on hoses. There are so many different types of hoses in the industries. Like rotarty hoses, hydraulic hoses, acid chemical hoses and so on.. but when the person ask us about wad is pressure equals to... none of us know the answer. I studied so hard for this subject, Physics, and I actually forgotten all the formulas!!!! OH!! so embarassing... somehow, what we studied come to use once in a while too. haha.....

I'm actually quite glad that I worked in this company as it gives me a wider knowledge on the marine, oil and gas industries. I read in the TODAY talking about some oil rigs... and the business of oil rigs companies are doing quite well. Before I worked here, I don't even haf an idea what all these oil rigs are about... so not so bad working here.. excluding all the long hours of work. hahaa....

Juz realised that my working experience revolve around the marine sector. During attachment, the company I worked for deals with paint, not any ordinary paint but those epoxy paint... which is painted on the vessels, so that the vessels will not corrode so easily. The second company is dealiung with containers.. sea containers.. whenever companies need to ship out their goods to the other port, the container is an essential need. Next is this job.. doing on selling of pipes, tools and alot of other equipments for the marine, oil and gas companies.

It seems like a cycle. We need to ship our goods, which are the pipes, tools.. blah blah.. so need to ship in containers.. The ships/ vessels carrying the containers have been in the sea for a long time and withstanding against all weathers.. soon, the ships began to corrode, colours begin to fade. So the marine paint company will sell the paint to them to protect their vessels. Cool huh?

God has paved this pth for me... to learn more about the marine sector. He actually linked everything up for me.. Wow.. everything is in His plans. I wonder what will be His next move for me.

Still pondering on whether to register for uni next year or the year after next. Is 1 year of experience enough for mi? Shld I stay on a bit longer? This company is good in the sense that I got to learn and they gif mi the opportunity to learn and are willing to teach me. It's juz that the work is really tiring and busy busy... can't take the stress most of the time.

To think back, are all the companies the same? or even worse?

2006-09-10T14:09:00.000+08:00

Work life so far is bad. Is it really so common to haf backstabbers at the workplace? Is it really fun for others to wreck other people's peace? Hmm.. mayb this is the way they vent their stress.

Trying my best to do my work, but it's always my fault juz because i'm new and too soft. That's the world. My fren asked mi to be more fierce and loud but i juz couldn't, I'm new, there's more to learn. I've low self-confidence, always not sure if I did right or wrong, so i got somehow "bullied" by ppl.

Thank God that there are some Samaritans ard who defended mi when I'm not ard to hear the colleague said to the customers.

People dun like to admit their mistakes so they pushed all the blames on others, especially to people whom they see are vulnerable. So sad, but that's the norm. Who will blame those people holding high positions?

But whatever it is, God will protecting me and send His angels to guard over me. And I'm happy to haf such a great and mighty God.

2006-09-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

Taken by wei. haha.. Initially the photo taken look like this... and soon it became......

THIS!! Ugly huh? but kinda fun. haha... wad a cool hp.

2006-09-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

Right after work today, went Bugis wif liwei. It's very tiring initally coz I was hungry and drained out by work. But I'm so happy! I bought a shirt!! hahaha.... I like it very much. Hm... think will go back again. Liwei's one oso very nice. Still deciding.

Juz got my first full time, long term pay. It feels GREAT! Wow, earning my own allowance now. Mum says Daddy not giving any more allowances to me anymore. So, got to be more careful in the areas I spent my money. Liwei's hp is cool. Shall post the pics for u all to see once she uploads it. I looked like an alien in the pic she took!! SUPER UGLY. muz wait for my updates den u know how ugly I am. But it's quite funny.. hahaha....

It'll be another meaningful week next 2 weeks wif all the swimming, badmintons, wedding and birthdays. haha... look forward to them.

2006-08-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

It's been some time since I updated.

Work is getting more and more hectic, with all the orders to print, enquires to be sent, quotations to be typed out to customers. My mind is in a whirl. Piles and piles of unfinished work awaits for mi tomorrow or should I say everyday.

Think I've been putting too much stress on myself to work so hard. Well, ppl say work smart and not work hard, it doesn't pay in this society to work hard. True? Guess I should follow this phenomenon of working smart. Juz complete what I can and that's it. The rest will finish tml. Don't wana work so hard and in the end, ended up so tired myself and getting sick.

I tot working life is for mi. Still enjoy the days studying even though there might be exams, projects and presentations. But it's far more better off than working life.

I muz persevere on. Juz one more year and I'll be on my way to school. Hang in there. I'll change my attitude towards this. I'm gonna enjoy myself here. Yes! God will see mi through all these.

2006-08-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

... continued..

the conversation is true on how we live our life sometimes... the part it says.. life is a process of creation strucks mi. So i decided to create my own life, trying to live my life to the fullest and with no regrets.. so :

26 July - My first day of work

27 July - after work, meet up wif ling and jess to PS for dinner at manhattan fish market till 11+pm

29 July - after went cycling at east coast park, i meet wei at westmall till 8plus

30 July - go church and meet up wif tricia and huixin for shopping at Far east, Heeren, OG den haf dinner till 8+pm.....

3 Aug - watch Helen the baby fox with jess, wei and ling at Shaw house den went balcony till we caught the last train home

6 Aug - catch up wif my beloved sunshines after church at marina square and went to festival of praise after tat till 10+pm.

so many programs I have ever since i juz started work. It's really hectic though I haf fun with my frenz. But the funny thing is that when I'm so free so free ( that time when I'm jobless), no one is free to go out... now that when I'm working... all the programs... keep swarming in.

cannot make it... I cannot go out anymore, till i get enuf rest first. I've been drained out. haha... i think age is catching up on me. Old liao old liao.. unlike a few years back when I can dun slp for 2 day back to back during christmas eve and christmas day and subsequently for the celebration of the new year.

to look back at all these, I'm glad i did tat. Coz now, i dun haf the energy to do all these. hahaha....

2006-08-07T21:27:00.000+08:00

I've really been drained out these 2 weeks. Oh.. can't believe how some ppl can survive. Sometimes I would juz ask myself.. why is my life so boring? Everyday go home after work... slp eat... watching the television programs.... wad's more? how can life be more interesting and more exciting for mi?

Then I read this email conversation. There's some parts which really strikes mi.
DO read on... It's very true.

GOD: Hello. Did you call me?
ME: Called you? No. Who is this?
GOD: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will Chat.
ME: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
GOD: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
ME: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
GOD: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets youresults. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

ME: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

GOD: Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the Mediumyou are comfortable with.

ME: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

GOD: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

ME: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

GOD: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

ME: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

GOD: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

ME: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty...

GOD: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

ME: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

GOD: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

ME: You mean to say such experience is useful?

GOD: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

ME: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?

GOD: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggleand endurance, not when you are free from problems.

ME: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading...

GOD: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

ME: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving In the right direction. What should I do?

GOD: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

ME: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

GOD: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
ME: What surprises you about people?

GOD: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

ME: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.

GOD: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.

ME: How can I get the best out of life?

GOD: Face your past without regret. Handle your present withconfidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

ME: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

GOD: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

ME: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.

GOD: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem toresolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

2006-07-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

haf fun at Manhanttan Fish Market on Thurs! Hmm.. too bad JyeMin and Liwei didn't manage to come to join us. Great meeting Jessica and Ruiling up! haha... The food there not bad.. juz that they are quite oily a bit. haha......

The serving is HUGE!!

the 'kiasu' Singaporean.

Ready? Get set....

Wa... Haven't Go yet... she's already 'eyeing' for the food. haha.

The unfinished Business.

yeah! But we still enjoy the times together! :)

I tried uploading the pics in sequence. But it didn't turned out well, can't shift those pics.. hm.. so forget it.. these are the successful pics i uploaded. We went shopping after that. For nice heels. And the 2 shopping queens I went out with, shop for a long time for their heels. Finally, Ling bought her nice red Bata 'kick-kok' heels. hahaha....

2006-07-28T22:14:00.000+08:00

First 3 days of work was good. Time seemed to be passing very quickly everyday at work. And I don't really feel that tired working in this company. Maybe it's due to the new environment and the light workload given to me.

Will be expecting more as the days come. Hope I can tahan by then. haha.. But i really thank God for giving me nice Bosses everytime I work. He's really good to me. (",)

Never been to work where this is no msn at all.... argh... and no one uses it! I can't believe it. What kind of century is it? Hmm... But all of them don't seemed to be very busy from what I see, coz outside the office, there are people smoking and stuff. Hmm... Quite ok.

My workplace has got this palm reader. Like those 'shuan ming' machine. Need to place our palm there to clock in and out. I think it's pretty unhygenic. The machine is full of germs i guess.. coz people need to scan their palms... and you never know what they did before that... and those with sweaty palms... Yucks!! but kinda troublesome if you forgot to scan when you went out for lunch or went home, den I duno wad will happen to my salary if this happen.

*******

Recently, I juz read the newspaper. There is this new "BioPass". It's a new type of passport which will store all your particulars. So it's suppose to be more convenient to identify you when you are travelling overseas.

It kinda freak mi out coz years ago.. think it's 1998? yea.. The newspaper reported that by 2008 or 2010 or later ( can't rmb) , people will have micro-chips inserted under our skin. And it seemed to be becoming true. And the Bible oso stated that when this mirco-chips begin to be inserted into the human body for transactions, buying and selling purposes, the end times are coming.

And this BioPass is actually made from mirco-chips.. so if this passport is not well-protected, the passport will not be in use.. and need to be changed. But to think of the words in the Bible beginning to fulfil, it is really scares me..

2006-07-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

love. complicated.

Everyone yearns to be loved and at the same time love others too.
My dad once said, ' How come one will feel loved when someone juz "sayang" him/her? very interesting hor?'

Hmm.. ya lo.. how come? I really feel loved when my mum hugs mi and kisses mi on my cheeks. Feel so fortunate and filled with happiness. Then was recalling wad my friend said to mi on msn tat day... she was commenting on why she don't really have feelings for guys and stuff... I got the same sentiment as her. She was saying mayb both of us don't really lack love coz our family pampered us alot, so we don't really chase after those boy - girl relationship.

True?? Maybe? I'm oso not very sure about it. Partly?

Why must boy-girl relationship be so complicated at times? ** wonder***

I like u, u dun like mi, u like mi, i dun like u...

I like u and u like mi but break-up in the end.

When will there be a time where this is happily ever after?

Will this kind of LOVE exist? or it happen only in fairy tales?

When will my prince come?

"We love because He first loved us." 1 John 4:19

2006-07-25T10:16:00.000+08:00

From the Inside Out by Hillsongs

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
EverlastingYour light will shine when all else fades
Never endingYour glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
EverlastingYour light will shine when all else fades
Never endingYour glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

EverlastingYour light will shine when all else fades
Never endingYour glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

2006-07-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my last day of work at ntu. They employed another girl to take over me. The girl is deaf and mute but what I heard from them is that she is very smart, got distinction for her English during 'o' levels and had many job experiences.

Though I only see her on Friday, to tell her and hand over some work to her, it just made me very comfortable to be with her. I can see hope in her eyes. Though she might be handicap, she juz worked hard for what she want to achieve. We communicate through papers and pens. Kinda tough coz some words cannot be expressed juz by writings.

Starting out my new job on wed. Expecting the unexpected. And don't know what to expect there. Wondering what kind of work will I be handling. And Rachel... if u are reading this.. I'm not working in some fish company!!! I'm not fish seller ok? hahahah....

This is the logo of the new company that I'll be working on Wed. My fren, rachel, said it looks like a fish company. coz got sea... got mountain... den the shape of it is like a fish. hmm... ok la.. looks a bit like it but it's not a fish company. hahaha....

Yesterday was also the first time I saw 2 of my Pri Sch frenz cum Sec Sch frenz at my house bus-stop. All of us have grown up.. all leading different lives. Going to different directions in life. Somehow, when I see them. I wanted to say, 'Hi!' to them but I hesitated. I don't want to be the one who take the initative. And I think the 3 of us are waiting for each other to take the move but none of us did. And guess wad? Our buses came at the same time, 157, 187 and 198 and we all boarded different buses and went on our destinations.

Hm.. quite silly huh? is it juz so hard to say take the first move sometimes? I think it doesn't juz happen to me. mayb we are afraid of being reject and embarass when our frenz ignore us when we say, 'Hi' to them.

2006-07-14T11:27:00.000+08:00

IRRITATING PEOPLE!!!!!! ARGH!!!!

Dun like people pestering me and pressing me for an answer immediately. Went for a talk on Thurs and on Fri, went for an interview. Don't know why suddenly all these people are pressing me.. really hate it!!!

Firstly, the talk... it's asking you to buy their products... den need to pay like thousand of dollars. It's about my hard-earned money. Of course I need to think about it. And the people there keep asking mi why why and more whys.. It's damn irritating! And somemore I rushed all my way down from work and went there to listen until going to 10pm. And I'm so so so tired out.

Give me a break!

After I say NO.. They still talk to me, trying to persuade me around. WADEVA! So late already can... I need to rest.. give me some peace!

Then the interview. The interview today in the morning went smoothly. I kinda like the job. But I still got one more in the late noon. Therefore, I need time to think which is a better one for me. When this agent knows that I'm interested and have a high chance of going for this job, she keeps pestering me to gif her an answer. I told her I will tell her around 3pm. Coz the other interview ended ard that time.
She demands an answer from me and didn't want me to think. And ask the Why question AGAIN! Please lah! My future is at stake. I juz wana be clear after both the interview.

People said that successful people make decisions immediately. So that they can grasp onto the golden opportunity.
BUT... I really don't wana make the wrong decisions. I need more time to think and analyse. Can't u all juz gif mi this small space for myself? U all juz onli care for ur own money, that's all! But wad about the rest of the people? after taking their money into your pockets, den u all juz leave. what's this?!

angry.... hmph....

2006-07-11T22:07:00.000+08:00

This is what happens when 3 person got nothing to do. haha... while waiting for the Fire Conference on 1 June 2006.

hmm.... smile until our mouth numb liao... So boring

Bang!! Oh what's that??

UFO coming!!!! Look!!!! Where Where???

Bish**

2006-07-09T14:41:00.000+08:00

It was an exhausted day yesterday but we all had fun. Went to Laser Quest for cell group outing. Though it's only the 10 of us, Hanqing, Edmund, Charmaine, Dawn, Joseph, James, Shaun, Shawn, QiuYan and mi, it was an exciting game.

All of us got ready our 'fighting suit' and 'guns' to attack the opponents. The place was quite small actually but it seemed BIG with the lights off but we were basically running and attacking each other in the same place. haha..

The place was dark and all we could see was each others' teeth... haha.... so funny or scary? haha.... Like a character in Alice in Wonderland...

People will be embushed and attack u from behind. A funny thing happened was when Joseph tried to run away from haiqiang's attack and he banged onto the trap when he was about to turn and escape. He fell to the ground, not because he banged onto trapped wall but he was laughing at his own stupidity.. of having to bang onto the wall..

Though each game lasted for 20 mins, time seemed to be crawling. After 10 mins of shooting, all of us were tired and wondering when the game will finish coz we were all tired... It was an exciting and exhausted game.

2006-07-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

Winter snow is falling down
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on
Like a fairy tale come true
Sitting by the fire we made
You're the answer when I prayed
I would find someone
And baby I found you

Chorus:
All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful every day
For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep
What I'd give if I could keep
Just this moment
If only time stood still
But the colors fade away
And the years will make us grey
But baby in my eyes
You'll still be beautiful

By: Jim Brickman Collin raye, Susan Ashton

The Heart

2006-07-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

The Heart

"Tomorrow morning," the surgeon began, I'll open up your heart..."

"You'll find Jesus there," the boy interrupted.

The surgeon looked up, annoyed "I'll cut your heart open," he continued, to see how much damage has been done..."

"But when you open up my heart, you'll find Jesus in there," said the boy.

The surgeon looked to the parents, who sat quietly. "When I see how much damage has been done, I'll sew your heart and chest back up, and I'll plan what to do next."

"But you'll find Jesus in my heart. The Bible says He lives there. The hymns all say He lives there. You'll find Him in my heart."

The surgeon had had enough. "I'll tell you what I'll find in your heart. I'll find damaged muscle, low blood supply, and weakened vessels. And I'll find out if I can make you well."

"You'll find Jesus there too. He lives there."

The surgeon left.

The surgeon sat in his office, recording his notes from the surgery, "...damaged aorta, damaged pulmonary vein, widespread muscle degeneration. No hope for transplant, no hope for cure. Therapy: painkillers and bed rest. Prognosis:, "here he paused, "death within one year."

He stopped the recorder, but there was more to be said, "Why?" he asked aloud. "Why did You do this? You've put him here; You've put him in this pain; and You've cursed him to an early death. Why?"

The Lord answered and said, "The boy, My lamb, was not meant for your flock for long, for he is a part of My flock, and will forever be. Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain,and will be comforted as you cannot imagine. His parents will one day join him here, and they will know peace, and My flock will continue to grow."

The surgeon's tears were hot, but his anger was hotter. "You created that boy, and You created that heart. He'll be dead in months. Why?"

The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb, shall return to My flock, for He has done his duty: I did not put My lamb with your flock to lose him, but to retrieve another lost lamb."

The surgeon wept.. The surgeon sat beside the boy's bed; the boy's parents sat across from him. The boy awoke and whispered, "Did you cut open my heart?"

"Yes," said the surgeon. "What did you find?" asked the boy. "I found Jesus there," said the surgeon.

Author Unknown

2006-06-24T16:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was an exciting day! This is my first time tat i went to watch world cup!! and it's with all the uncles.. big belly and "smoky" uncles at the coffee shop!

It's an interesting experience though, but not so much of the atmosphere there. Hmm.. but it's cool watching with Rach! She so excited about the match and will be so anxious whenever another team tries to score. hahaha..

2006-06-24T15:18:00.000+08:00

Spot mi... haha.. my fren found it on the school web.. hahah...
This was taken during our briefing before we went to the stage.

2006-06-21T21:21:00.000+08:00

Well.. juz graduated. Hmm.. now thinking about what will lie ahead my future, what do I wana do, where fo I wana see myself at..

have been finding alot of permanent jobs through the web. Stupid me, nv ask my current boss... lose quite a number of working opportunities.

Actually, I kinda enjoy working at my current job now. I think it's very cool to haf an email account of my own. A table and a comp with my own password and ID. haha... it's pretty exciting. The people are nice.. dun think there's any politics, coz everyone is doing their own work quietly.. Nice working environment, clean place

i like my colleagues there. haf fun working there. but i juz think that there will be better jobs out there other than doing admin. so wana find a more perm job that can have more income oso.

i was wondering, wad do i want? wad kind of job am i looking for? wad do i wana become?
Will there be a job or career which i will really like and enjoy working?

sometimes, i feel that most people will study and study and don't know what they really want and wad they wana become. juz study and work.

what is this life about?

2006-05-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

For the past few days, I've been eating good food. Very ex food too.. haiz... and I think I', getting fatter and fatter liao. Sometimes wana pamper myself wif those nice food.. hmm.. but think I really gona 'jian fei'.

Well, went to this japanese restaurant at marina square on sat wif wei. ahaha.. nice food...

This is the Shabu Shabu beef with radius and plum flavour rice.

Our Mattcha Kurian and Green Tea Sundae.. wa.. Yum Yum...

Went to buy some gifts for my colleagues after that. Spend over $100 +. Heart ache. Nv spend so much in my life before. haha..

Muz think of my slimming plan now. Or else my face look so bloated in every picture that I took. On sunday, i went out wif my poly frenz to celebrate jm's bday at NYDC. But i nv eat coz too full. somemore the day before, i've spent so much.. muz cut down. hehe...

Hmm.. GSS coming, all shops are selling cheap stuffs.. think i'm not going to spend much.

2006-05-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

Today, my boss treat mi to dinner at Hanabi Japanese Restaurant at 559 Bukit Timah Road #01-03 King's Arcade. It's great! Good japanese food. But the fried chicken too oily.

It's supposed to be a farewell dinner for mi coz i'll be leaving company on 2 June. But it's also a birthday celebration of another colleague. haha.. Like this kind of bonding. Hmm, although i din tok much, but the atmosphere was great. 8 of us were there altogether, they crack jokes... laughter fills the whole room. Oh, we got a room to ourselves so wun affect other ppl.. hahah....

Sashimi

Hmm, I think it's too raw, din like it.. anyway, i "kop" this pic from other ppl one.. but it's exactly the same thing...

Tempura

This one is nice, but juz a bit too oily for mi..

The food were good.. really good.. but juz that quite ex. The total bill for the 8 of us were like $364. Buffet dinner. Like the ice cream the best. haha...

The people in this company that I'm working are friendly, warm and humourous. No wonder most of the people in this company worked more than 9-10 years. Some who worked here before resigned to other better prospects but in the end, they still returned to this company because one of them said that when u go out, u will find that actually this company is still the best.

Hmm.. work life is different. Money is not the only determinating factor that causes u to stay. It's more on relations, environment...

Oh ya.. now my head is cracking... I'm leaving work.. what should i buy for my colleagues? Hmm.. nv buy anything for them before. Muz buy something for them to thank them. They've treated mi so well. So far, i think this is the best work I got and the people there are not only warm, i like my job too. (",)

Hope that when I come out from skl, I can work there.. haha.. that will be nice :)

2006-05-20T12:11:00.000+08:00

My Art Piece.

Like the Fisherman's the best, den the apple. haha.

Looks like real one huh?

Apple!
someone wrote this interesting phrase:

"An apple away keeps a doctor away,
if the doctor is handsome, throw the apple away."

Hmm.. Colour until the paper torn liao. haha.. muz haf coloured too hard.

2006-05-20T10:29:00.001+08:00

Liwei, this is for u. I'm back by ur demand. haha.. honoured??

Well, I'm ending my work soon. Working till 2 June. Looking for another job..got lobang?? hehe.... duno when school will be starting. waiting and waiting for letter. Anyway, who's the anonymous who tag on the tagboard?

I'll try to update as often as possible, so that wei, u can read.. hahaa...

2006-04-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

This is cool.. Got it from a friend's web.

2006-04-07T19:52:00.000+08:00

Nice right?
Something SURPRISING happen to me at work! Guess wad?

Hmm.. I was working like normal today. Like any other day. I was very touched and surprised by what my colleagues did today. They went to buy a birthday cake for mi and tried to give mi a surprise! But it was kinda spoilt by one manager.. haha.. coz when he walked put of the room, he say the cake and said quite loudly, ' Eh, who's birthday?'

haha.. den i heard someone beating him.. haha.. got one "pia" sound.

I was touched. This is the first time I celebrate my birthday in a company. Somemore, I juz work for 1 month.. I really never expect them to remember or celebrate my birthday for mi coz I'm only a temp girl.. They bought a watch for me as present and they bought it on 4 April... they took the time to buy present and cake for mi. It touches my heart. ya....

I feel so loved. so many people take care of mi. *so fortunate. Thank God for such nice colleagues and friends..

2006-04-03T21:32:00.000+08:00

Work today is so busy busy.. very busy... it's the end of month closing again. First time help them to close. The one coaching me wants me to finish entering the entries by 3pm. I tried my best. wa.. search until break time I still duno. it's that busy. But, the time passed faster in this way. haha...

Got sick today, hmm... cough and flu. Oh.. yesterday went to buy my fren's present. A skirt!! haha.. never see her wear skirt before. so bought her a skirt! At bugis! it's really nice!!!! :) so nice!!! But too bad... quite short. haha.. not my type.. but i like the pattern though. But too bad again.. mi no nice leg.. haha.. hairy hairy.. hahaha...

It's really fun shopping with rachel. haha... got "caught" by some promoter. But ok la.. Think i gona rest.. tired.. haha... panda eyes liao.. can't slp recently... yea..

2006-03-26T20:02:00.000+08:00

Yay!! I got my results! I am so thankful that God gif mi such good results. :) So happy happy... haha.. so worried that I'll fail one of my module. But thank God, I got C+. Though not very good but it's wad I din expect. haha.. tot will get D.

Hm... But my overall GPA is not very good.. Got 2.9... hmm.. Juz pray hard that God will let mi go to the University He wants mi to go. Though I wanted badly to go to NUS or NTU. hmm... shall keep my faith on Him. (",)

I'm going to church camp!!! hahaha.. hahahha... 5-8 June.. heheh... yay!! so excited.

Hmm... yayaya...

2006-02-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

I got a job! yeah! Thank you God!

Went for an interview today with a company and my friend is having the same interview with the company on mon. Which means that my friend and I will be sort of competing for one position.
But after the interview and everything, the employer decided to employ me without giving any chances to my fren. I was very happy initially but felt guilty after that coz my fren was not given the chance for the interview on mon anymore. So, after the interview, i said sorry to her because i got the job. I know how it feels when ur friend got the job and u didn't.

So, I saw her on MSN and chatted with her. I told her i am sorry about today and didn't expect all these. she juz plainly replied mi by saying nvm. and didn't tok to mi after that. Haiz... ytd night i was also chatting with her and she keep replying and initiating the talk. But today, she didn't want to talk to me. And her MSN nick was 'Liar'.

I asked her how come she put that and she replied saying she put that for fun. nothing.

I really wonder if she was saying this to mi. But i didn't lied to her. haiz.. am i too sensitive? But her reaction and attitudes are so different. Juz one day make so much difference? I duno... But I'm really sorry for what had happened and didn't let u have a chance to perform urself during that interview u will be having on mon.

sorry.

2006-02-22T16:18:00.000+08:00

Thank you Rachel!! :) You are so so sweet!

Yesterday, I got a shock when my mum passed mi a gift. She found it on the shoe-rack when she returned home from work. Was wondering wad is inside the wrapping paper. Guess wad? Inside there laid the Brand's Chicken Essence, a card and 3 chocos.. haha.. so nice! But it's from anonymous. Took mi quite some time to guess though. haha.. but it wasn't tat hard, hehe.. coz only those few ppl who knows how to come to my house. haha.... :p

But it's very sweet of u lo.. really... so fortunate to have such a friend like u.. nv fail to gif mi surprises. haha.... ya.. those weeks i thought u all forgotten about mi liao. coz so long nv see u all, tok and sms liao... but mi not so sweet leh.. nv do such surprising things to u... hmm....

Oh ya.. on monday was talking to yinglin on msn. Actually, i was kinda worried about not getting a job after my exams are over on the 2 March. So, she was sharing with mi her testimony.. on how she managed to get her current job. She asked mi to write those criteria on a piece of paper and pray to God to answer my prayers on the job.
So, i decided to use this method, by writing down the kind of job i wanted, the salary and place where i wana work. I wrote it on Monday night. And today, I received a call from an agency telling mi that there's an admin job which i like... and it is at Tuas... near my house! :)
But... I have to fight with my friend over this admin position. Coz tat time, i recommend my fren to this agent oso.. den we are offered the same company and position. So, the company will have to decide who to choose - mi or my fren.

I really pray hard that they will choose mi because i can start work the day after my exams. and the job is what i would want, somemore it's near my house.

Haha.. think God is testing my faith. Putting two person to fight for one position. haiz.. dun like it... but I muz trust Him.. Really pray hard. Please help mi to pray too!! thank you....

2006-02-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

Having my exams break now. 3 papers to study. Very scared. Coz the marketing presentation on Fri didn't turn out well. We got 'C'!!! Haiz... first time get such low grade. Mood dampened because all my hope is pinned on this presentation and now.. it turned out this way. I really dun haf the confidence to do well in the marketing exam. Muz pray really hard before I study for this module, coz our God hears our prayers yea? yup....

Sorry ar, Liwei.. I tot u not interested in applying for University liao.. so I didn't tell u that I handed in my application. I'm really sorry.

These few days not in the good mood. Don't feel like doing anything.... but exams are around the corner liao.

Marketing Communications 27 Feb (Mon)
Strategic Human Resource Mgt 28 Feb (Tue)
International Employment 1 Mar (Wed)

Hope I'll just do my best! For the last round liao. Hope I don't need to repeat. haha.... Give everything to God. Hmm.... :) Jia you.

2006-02-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

Watch 'I not stupid too' with my mum. It's really very touching. Cried a few times during the show. Never cried so bad in my life while watching movie. But it's very touching.... or perhaps.. I'm too emotional liao.. ya lo... den after the show, my eyes were red when I came out of the theatre.. so ugly!!!!!

Okie la.. very tired though after the movie, coz cried too much liao.. until i got headache after the show... haha... but it all worth watching! :) coz can spend time wif my mum too! hehe....

Hmm.. having RMW final test on wed. And I onli at the second chapter! 8 more to go... I muz finish it before wednesday and pray real hard that God will give me wisdom! and not panick oso.. haha.... take care!! (",) oh ya.. nowadays the weather is unpredictable, rain liao den sunshine.... after that rain again.... the weather a bit 'sort sort' one...

2006-01-28T10:10:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY finish my project on the building!!! Yes!!! haha.. I got a B+. Thank God! But hope they will not moderate the marks anymore or else I will be getting a B. haha.. although both got B, but a plus looks much nicer. hehe.... :)

Ytd was preparing for the presentation and I got so so so tired. Coz I did everything till 1230am and woke up at 5am to do again. Coz very tired so went to slp. Cannot make it..
I actually got so tired tat I nearly lost my laptop for 3 times in a day!!

First incident:
I went to class wif my laptop. Then i put it below my table then listen to the tutorial... blah blah.. and when it's time to go, i forgot to take my laptop. But heng, my fren saw and reminded mi.
Second incident:
Went to the canteen to eat after that tutorial, so i left it on the chair. After eating, haf to go for another lesson. So i juz left like tat!!! I forgot that i have brought wif mi my laptop. My fren saw and ask mi to take.
Third incident:
After lunch, went for the next class. Coz the class is still occupied, so we waited outside the room. I left the laptop and my bags on the chair and talk to my fren.... blah blah... den the teacher opened another room for us to go in coz we went to the class very early. I took my bag and juz went into the room wif my frenz. I need to print some documents so i went to another place, while my frenz were in the class.
When i returned, my frenz told mi tat i had left my laptop outside the classroom without taking it in! Oh..... i was kinda shock! how can i forgot?? my baobei!!

think i'm too tired liao ba.. and worried about the building presentation. so... i forgot! but really muz thank God that no one actually steal my laptop when it is outside the class coz my frenz told mi tat alot of ppl are walking ard.. but they nv see... haha.....

2006-01-18T09:00:00.000+08:00

I never go to skl today... skipped the first lesson... coz today is elearning. if i go to skl, i'll have to attend the 9-11am lecture den lecture again at 3-5pm. So, i've decided... to go only for the 3-5pm lecture. haha.. huai dan... nvm.. hehe... last time too guai liao.. hahahaha....

My laptop under maintainence. so sad.. cannot look and touch my baobei... sad... duno how is it liao... all the way at Kallang there..... so near yet so far..... hope it'll be back soon.. coz so inconvenient for me and my fren and bro as well.. haha.. coz they have to lend mi their laptops. thanks rach!! for the laptop. ma fan ni le... arigato!

2005-12-31T20:21:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all!! :)

Hm... It's another year.. yes.. another year. And upon reflecting, I find that I haven't done much this year. And didn't learn much too. Somehow like wasted a year just like tat. Bogged down by so many works and worldly things and didn't have time to seek God.

Duno how your year has been, but I hope it'll be a great one with memorable lessons learnt and happy moments to share.

I went shopping with my mum yesterday. Supposed to go for the appreciation dinner though, but finally, I didn't go. But I was HAPPY!! haha... shop for new year clothes! Hmm.. got conned.. the shirt suppose to cost only $16.90 - we saw at the other shop but we bought it at $22.90!!! oh my! Then a 3/4 pants at $39.90!!! So expensive. Hmm.. But I kinda like that pants. But I think we got conned so was kinda... kinda.. haha.. u know.. yea...
The shirts were a bit weird. coz it's not like those normal shirt. hmm.. how to say... hmm... I wun see anyone wear those shirt in Singapore. Coz it's imported from Korean as from what the salesgirl said. hmmmm.... yar...

Christmas

2005-12-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

:) It's been raining these few weeks. Cool.. the christmas atmosphere is here. All the Christmas songs, lightings, gifts and most of all.. smiles on people.

2005-12-18T17:52:00.000+08:00

"Have faith in your dreams and someday, Your rainbow will come shining through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep believing. The dream that you wish will come true."

2005-12-03T13:44:00.000+08:00

I'm tired. There're juz simply too much things for me to do. projects, projects.. I dun like it. Really feeling sick of school during these period. Hope that school will juz be a place of only study with no projects. I dun mind the tests and exams. But it's the projects which I don't like. Having to meet deadlines....

Rachel they all flew to Cambodia this morning. Kinda miss them now. Wish I could go with them for the mission trip too... miss going to missions.

2005-11-19T19:37:00.000+08:00

It's 3rd week of school since it started. Wow! And it seemed like school have start long ago.. projects projects and more projects are streaming in... my head's gona burst. Hm.. i calculated le.. mayb i'll be studying night classes after i graduate and work in the morning.. coz even if i did really well this sem, it's not enuf to get mi to more than 3.5.. and i'm at 2.8 lidat... yup...

Let's talk abt happy things!!
Haha.. mi went to highlight my hair on TUES!! haha.. but hor, like cannot see leh.. onli under the light den can see.. hmm.. nvm.. but i like it.. especially that day when the hairdresser help mi straighten my hair.. and it's the FREE of charge! coz tat time no ppl den she offer to help mi straighten. so nice of her rite?? ya lo.. next time can go there.. it's at Far East. 05-46... haha... help them to advertise. haha...

at first, mi and my fren dun dare to go in one, coz the place like so ulu one.. den no ppl de.. den i tot ther service not good, not very 'fang xing' for them to highlight my hair. but den it turn out to be quite okie leh.. the person even teach us how to buy the colour if we wana DIY ourselves. haha....

2005-11-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

Recently, i find some changes in myself which I dun really like. Find tat I've become a bit more straight forward than last time. I dun like this... feels weird. It's like.. I'm beginning to shock myself of the things I said to my friends. Sometimes, I din realised anything until I went home to reflect on the things I've done and said and questioned myself.

Why did I said those things? Will I hurt anyone?

Puzzled by these things that happened, but I hope nothing bad will turn out of this. And hope God will guide my tongue on the things I say to people.

Hm... dun feel like myself, I feel far away from myself.. Din know who am I... hmm....

coincidence

2005-11-04T11:34:00.000+08:00

School started on wed, and guess who I saw? It's LUMEI!!

Haha... okie.. in the same Poly, of coz can see her.. but she's in the same lecture as mi!! Only for the wednesday lecture. haha.. Well, feel lidat weird though. coz we've nv been in the same lecture hall before. This was her elective module but my core module, so, she ended up in the same lecture as mi. hmmm... she dun really like my course though.. HR, haha.. she din noe tat her elective was a HR module.

Hm... weird la.. i duno.. juz something weird.. should be happy to see her in my lecture.. but, yes, I'm happy.. juz feel kinda weird.. din noe why.... duno how to describe.. haha...

Felt so silly today, mi and my frenz were waiting for our lecture on our elective module, many of us were separated and onli 3 of us were in the same lecture hall. We waited outside for like 15 mins? coz the lecturer was not here yet... so one of the students went in and see... den she said the lecture is changed to another lecture hall... so mi and my other frenz believed her as there were onli 8 ppl outside the hall... and it's like 1110am liao.. and the lecturer and many other students are not ard. We tot okie... mayb the lecturer changed venue.. and walk all the way to the other hall which is like so far.. and so hot...

AND.... there is no one in the next lexture hall.. it's under renovation!! oh.... haiz.. den we called someone.. and he said that they are in the lecture hall we were in the first place.. den we were like... Argh!!! haiz... all of us feel so stupid having to trust in that girl. haiz... and she was in the lecture hall herself. haiz... nvm la.. duno her oso.. haha.. next time see for ourselves lo.. dun anyhow trust ppl liao.

School was great. Work was great too!! Not much children one.. quiet and peaceful. den i can mark more peacefully. and not like mad woman.. haha.. having endless classwork to mark..

skl

2005-11-02T04:34:00.000+08:00

Went to East Coast Park yesterday to cycle. Sob.. my hands, legs and face... terrible!! I put cream le... still got burn.. somemore is in the morning... tot not so bad one.. haiz... pain ar.......

Hmm.. actuallu dun haf the feeling tat skl is reopening liao. it seems like i've kinda got use to the holiday mood. Tml going back le.. going to be busy busy.... after skl den need to work... so busy... 9am-9pm.. like work lidat. haha.. i so pain now.. sob....

2005-10-30T12:22:00.000+08:00

School's starting on monday le, but dun nid to go skl coz whole day tutorial.. haha.. only need to go on wed and fri! Will be going to East Coast Park tml to cycle. haiz.. hmm.. got a bit dun feel like going. sian leh. haiz... somemore the sun so bright. haiyo.. going to be 'chao ta' liao.

saw the schedule for the semester le.. First week of March is study break and 2nd week of March is EXAMS!! so fast!! Can't imagine i'll be graduating soon. it's like 4 months for mi to study and soon, exams time.. oh man... so fast....

These few weeks, i'm gona be broke. all my hard work money during the holidays gona be spent on presents.. and lots of presents.. coz so many ppl's bday during Oct and Nov... hmm.... and my brain juice gona be used up. haha.. okie... tat's all.. Shall write more when skl reopens..

heaven

2005-10-19T12:14:00.000+08:00

Thirty-five frequently asked questions about eternity. ~ By Peter Kreeft

and many other interesting questions about heaven.. i think it's an interesting site.. haha....

work at far away...

2005-10-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

hoho.. went to work at expo today for some textile exhibition. It's VERY far. But after working, I got to learn more about the people-to-people relations... and more about work in the service line. It's an eye-opening experience for mi though. haha... kinda fun la.. yup.. although it's super tiring.. coz haf to get up so early in the morning like 530am... dun think i woke up so early to go school or anywhere before. hahaha....

Through this work, I got to know that in the workplace:
1) you juz have to learn everything on ur own. No one can be there for u everytime, and u juz have to explore everything on ur own. No one will be telling u anything. You are on ur own.

why i said this? ... coz when i'm working, i was assigned to be an information counter girl. ALONE!! and all my other frenz are relations officers (aka ushers), yup.. den i have to depend on all the notes the organisers have given mi on friday during that training. I tell u.. the training session is kinda redundant. The in-charge didn't tell us wad to do.. she juz show us around the expo.. and nothing else.. and juz give us all the notes.
Then, on monday when we went to the different counters.. all of us like so blur.. dun even know where is where... coz the questions that the businessmen, who attended this exhibition, asked are so..... how to say.. hmm.. are not being told by the organisers.

But i was glad and thank God that He has somehow put this girl to mi... she is oso an usher.. but she was assigned to usher the people in front of my counter.. so i asked her to come into the counter to sit with mi or else i very blur... and the counter is so big!! Not only will i have to sell catalogues.. i oso have to provide information.. collect money.. very busy...
So, she will help mi to ask the organiser where the places that the businessmen wanted to go. coz we are not sure ourselves too. she is so called my 'runner'. ya... den on the first day, we duno anything, luckily got the notes wif mi den keep referring. during my free time, mi and tat girl will look at our notes.. to find out more information. everything haf to learn ourselves coz the frustrating thing is that the organisers themselves dun even know those places.. haiz.... ask them oso no use.. den they shoot us back somemore when my fren went to ask her abt some place.

The organiser was like : where are u from?
My fren : from the info counter
the organiser give my fren a look that implies that info is suppose to know all these things..

Then, we were like.. huh?? wad is this... they nv organise properly... oso nv train us.. how we know.. she herself oso duno lo... wad kind of organiser is this... ??? but we nv say la.. juz think in our hearts...

2) sometimes, if u duno, juz direct them to somewhere... haha
this is somehow pushing responsibilities, but sometimes, really haf no idea.. so juz direct them to the relevant counters. haha.... :P

3) be nice to the customers
hmm.. if really have no idea.. den smile to them nicely, tell them that we are not sure.. or suggest some alternatives where they can get their information other then us. haha... yup.. think they'll be happy enuf.. at least they have somewhere to go.. other den juz hanging ard not knowing where to go... like so poor thing...

haiz.. overall.. think that the service industry need to make alot of improvement. There's still a long way to go.. really...

heart

2005-10-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

today, i've learnt sometime not new but it means alot.

worship. wad is worship? actually, it is not juz singing songs.. christian songs in church or anywhere... worship is beyond that, it's giving our all to Him.

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself is not what You've have required
You search much deeper within
through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

~Heart of Worship

:)

2005-10-12T11:14:00.000+08:00

The key to friendship with God is not changing what you do, but changing your attitude toward what you do.

It's same as life ba, i feel personally... whether happy or not, still have to continue with life. It's juz how we change our attitude to look at the situation, how we can overcome our emotions and thoughts and not letting them to take control of our life... causing hindrance to our life... making us feel disappointed and sad..

thnx

2005-10-08T11:34:00.000+08:00

I've got my results, all Bs and Cs.. Though didn't really do that well but I'm happy that I didn't got any Ds.. haha... Thank God for the results. :) Hope that next semester, I'll work really hard and score well. If can't make it to university then oso nvm liao. coz maybe God doesn't want mi to go there. haha...

I went to NTU to celebrate my friend's birthday, although it's one day late but nvm la.. haha.. we bought Breadtalk's cakes for her. 3 small cakes in total, strawberry, mango and cheese. Hm.. very expensive for a small cake but coz we all sharing the cost so we bought it. hehe... I oso nv eat before so juz buy la! haha... but then, the cakes not nice one.. coz is all cream.. very thick cream.. but the cheese one is better. The school is so big!! wa.... den went to a cosy place to have a mini celebration. haha.. so cool! we so comical lo... coz the place got sensor one.. so if there is smoke, then the sensor will spray water. so we like so scared den faster light up the candle and sing a very very fast birthday song and blow the candle liao. haha... so cute.
Then they were talking about last years' celebration. That year, I went to JJC to celebrate for 3 of my friend who are born in October. haha.. but they use bread.. those sunshine bread.. with butter and jam.. as a birthday cake. so 'creative'. Now, upgrade liao.. haha.. become Breadtalk's cake.

Next time upload the photos here den can see the cake. :)

These few weeks cannot sleep well, my brain can't stop thinking. Hmm.. then everyday, i'll be so tired.. my eyes very pain, got headache. Have been telling my brain to stop thinking but it was of no avail. hmm.... really scared I'll get some kidney or liver problems if this continues. coz my mum always tells mi that if we dun sleep early, then the liver and kidney will keep working.. tat's why got pimples.. coz too heaty liao. haiz... actually have been feeling a bit pain in at the kidney area there.. duno is it i scared myself. hmm.. hope i can sleep well soon and STOP thinking...

2005-10-05T11:51:00.000+08:00

Exams results going to be out soon. Hmm.... dun feel anything now, but hope everything will go on smoothly and I can be promoted. That's all I asked for. 6 Oct... pls help mi pray......

happening

2005-10-02T05:24:00.000+08:00

Went to Suntec there to eat Bab Noodles. (",) Nice food but kinda ex. haha.. but it's okie la.. coz seldom eat so ex.. haha.. pamper myself oso.. :P Haf lotsa fun with the cell grp ppl. hehe... they are so lame.... but interesting ppl. Hmm.. den Rachel so funny... eat at Bab Noodles and get electrocute. lame ar..... we ate from 745pm lidat to like 9plus. Then, went walking ard the area and saw one shop with a small black hole and Charmaine said that the security guard is there looking thru.. lame ar..... but the way Hq repeated it was so funny la... wahaha...

Changing Appetite is a nice place. I like tat place. aha.. think the food there is oso great ba.. shld haf gone there to eat instead of Bab Noodles. coz the dishes there looks more appetizing.. haha. But it's been so long since I hang out until so late le.. 11 plus at night. Enjoy it though coz at night, it is more cooling. nice scenery.. can see stars... but too bad.. no stars yesterday.. coz going to rain liao.. haha..... but kinda tiring too la.. den somemore no bus late at night liao.. better not hang out so long. hmm.. think I am more of a night person after all these...coz afternoon too hot.. slp at home better.. hehehe....

And for all those who say that I hang out in those "dark" areas... U all ar... hmm... who believe is a pig... bleahz.... *juz joking la... love u all so much, don't wan u all to become pigs.. haha.. BUT i very GUAI one kkkkkkk... I dun go there one.. really.. nv nv go there before.. juz hear from my friends onli... coz most of them went there.. yuPp.. muz believe MI!!!!!

Faith

2005-09-30T05:01:00.000+08:00

"In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead." James 2:17

So, what is faith? How do we define faith? And what are the things that we should really do to show our faith?
Hm.. we all know that faith without deeds is dead. For mi, i heard this phrase time and again.. and I juz accept the fact that faith without deeds is dead. But what is it saying actually?? I juz take the word for what it is.... but what is the action that we muz do? what is true faith and false faith? This did not occur to mi in the past at all... until on monday. It's like, I've never really go and think about this question before, the meaning behind all these things at all.. and was kinda taken aback and it made mi think, when one of the members in the cell grp raised that question.
Coz suddenly, I duno the answer. All these years, I know of this phrase but I duno what is faith and what is the thing that we should really do. What are the things that we should actually do to show our faith....

Trusting God completely means having faith that he knows what is best for your life. You expect him to keep his promises, help you with problems and do the impossible when necessary.
That's what Noah did, he did not complain or make excuses but he juz trust in God and obey his word and build the ark for 120 years!! That's long... But that's what Noah did and it pleases God.

Real faith is not juz something that you say, feel, think, believe BUT it is something that you DO.

2005-09-27T00:37:00.000+08:00

You did not left me cos i sinned but instead You died for me.

You did not ignore me but instead You took away my pains and hurts.
You did not look down on me but instead You comforted me and filed me with Your love.

Sleepless nightz..haiz..

2005-09-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

These few days, I juz can't seemed to get to sleep. Haf to twist and turn in my bed for hours before I can get to sleep.. and is half asleep.. HORRIBLE!!!
So, yesterday went to slp in my parents' room after 2 hours of flipping around in my bed. Guess wad? I did sleep.. but the room was too cold for mi, when i got up in the morning, i got a slight sore throat, then I was thinking, "Oh no... going to be sick soon liao..."

Today got games day in church, haha.. was kinda fun.. hehehe.. but was tiring, too long din exercise liao ba. Hmm.. then come home was sick liao.. haiz.... ja lat... block nose liao.. hmm.. sad... double the sadness...

sad

2005-09-24T13:04:00.000+08:00

I'm so disappointed. Hm.... I saw one 3/4 pants that I like at Giordano last week. SO, me and my mum went to Jurong Point yesterday to buy it coz she not free the whole of last week. And it's on 30% sales! Last week dun haf sales la.. so i was thinking... wa.. so lucky din buy last week.. coz if not.. the pants will cost $39, now onli about $28 lidat... but... BUT.. mi so sad... dun haf my size liao... hmmm.... hmmm... so nvm.. went to IMM today to buy.. no more my size oso.. wa... wanted to go to Clementi and Westmall to see one.. but.. haiz... disappointed liao.. shld be dun haf liao.. coz I think alot of ppl oso like tat pants. hmm.......

Walk until my toe bleed. Ja Lat... so upset liao la.....

Looking through

2005-09-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

YES!! My exams are finally over. I will juz have to wait for my results to come out on the 6th Oct. Hmm.. kinda scared..

I was trying to sign in to blogger to add my post when i saw those recent blogs that is flashing beside the sign in frontpage. Then, I click on this interesting blog name... and I find this blog kinda interesting! haha... http://cmarie88.blogspot.com/
I'm juz captured by all those links, those navigations that is on the blue column. Tat caught my attention. Really interested how they manage to put all that on the blogs or even on the websites.

I like the part when she said about the movie, Red Eye.

In fact, the movie isn't that scary at all. It's suspensefull at times, and you are anxious to see how Lisa will escape the bad situation she's in, but it never gets really scary. The main actor's performances are both equally good. Rachel McAdams, and Cillian Murphy, who I loved in Batman Begins, are very believable in this movie. I love the fact that Rachel McAdams character, Lisa, has a brain. She is constantly thinking and trying to find a way out. Which is great. So many movies have an idiot female character who couldn't make a desicion if her life depended on it, which it usually does!

Hmm.. but one thing that caught mi most is the books she read. One of it is The Five People You Meet in Heaven. I went to find that book in Yahoo! It's a very nice book! VERY.
Muz take a look at it. If can, read it. :) I'm going to find tat book. wahaha.. ;)

God bless

2005-09-13T15:18:00.000+08:00

God bless all of us who are having exams and tests to have good results!!! Give us wisdom and strength when doing all those papers tat seemed to be endless.. By Your strength, we are sure we are going to do it!!!! yeah!!

examz

2005-09-12T12:25:00.000+08:00

I feel that I can't take the stress ANYMORE!! It's making mi feel so sick. I feel so tired. Everyday staying up and all I do is study study study... How i wish this would be over soon. It's giving headache and I feel so tired.

My biggest worry is not being able to finish my studies on time and not doing well. Maybe I give myself too much stress liao. Perhaps. I know God can help mi. I know He is there. But I'm juz so pain. ARGH... I feel that I can't breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm getting sicker and weaker each day staying home to study or going to school. But if I dun force myself, I am so scared that I will not do well.

Actually, I think about alot of things today. Hmm.. I feel that I'm... duno how to say. Everytime, I'll try to encourage people when I see them sad or know how they are, when I know that their exams are coming, I'll try to sms them... but when my exams come, somehow, no one is there to really encourage mi, no one seems to care.... even when I dun have exams, no one tends to ask mi abt my day.... .....

I feel encouraged myself when I send those messages and get replies saying thank you.
But these are not what I wanted, I juz hope that people will take the initiatives to sms mi or call mi to juz ask mi how I am. hmm.... Maybe my friends are juz too busy for mi... i'm tired.............. really tired le.......