Monday, September 12, 2005

 

I feel that I can't take the stress ANYMORE!! It's making mi feel so sick. I feel so tired. Everyday staying up and all I do is study study study... How i wish this would be over soon. It's giving headache and I feel so tired.

My biggest worry is not being able to finish my studies on time and not doing well. Maybe I give myself too much stress liao. Perhaps. I know God can help mi. I know He is there. But I'm juz so pain. ARGH... I feel that I can't breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm getting sicker and weaker each day staying home to study or going to school. But if I dun force myself, I am so scared that I will not do well.

Actually, I think about alot of things today. Hmm.. I feel that I'm... duno how to say. Everytime, I'll try to encourage people when I see them sad or know how they are, when I know that their exams are coming, I'll try to sms them... but when my exams come, somehow, no one is there to really encourage mi, no one seems to care.... even when I dun have exams, no one tends to ask mi abt my day.... .....

I feel encouraged myself when I send those messages and get replies saying thank you.
But these are not what I wanted, I juz hope that people will take the initiatives to sms mi or call mi to juz ask mi how I am. hmm.... Maybe my friends are juz too busy for mi... i'm tired.............. really tired le.......

Signing Off On|12:25 PM|

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