Saturday, October 28, 2006

 

The bad news of my boss's father in law passed away broke out juz today at 9plus. She muz be terribly upset having to lost her loved ones.

I don't know how terrible and miserable it feels to lose a loved one, but I'm sure the feeling is indescribable. Like sword piercing through your heart. Actually, I'm very worried about Monday when I go to work. What am I going to expect? What is there awaiting me to handle?

I juz pray hard that God will send His angels to watch over me and help me pull through like what he did the last time when my boss when to the hospital for that 4 days.

Frankly speaking, that 4 days were hard to pass.
Perhaps I'm too dependent on my boss, perhaps I'm too inconfident that I can handle those work by myself.
Sometimes, I ever wonder when will my confidence build up and become more independent and not so insecure of the things that are awaiting ahead of me.

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Today, there was also a meeting with some cell people to discuss on things on the cell group. I don't know what is God's plan for me, but somehow, I don't really like the idea. I'm scared and don't think I'm up to the job.

Maybe some will say, ' It's not whether you are up to the job, but it's whether you are willing to take up this job. Nothing is impossible or too hard.'

What is there ahead my path..................?

Signing Off On|10:06 PM|

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